...i have to make a decision between two guys and i dont know who to choose or if i can even choose one....im slowly fallign to pieces....i dont even want to look at myself in the mirror anymore....i dont know how i can or have ill be able to choose.....or not choose.....i try thinking through everything and feel hwo it is but its so hard....sometimes i have to remember to bretahe because i serisouly cant breathe at times....." losing you is like living in a world with no air.....but how, do you expect me, to live alone with jsut me, 'cause my world revloves around you, its so hard for me to breathe....." I keep listening to glee songs but mainly this one....i jsut dont knwo what to do....and i wish shouldnt could help me choose but its mine own and i wish it wasnt....because idk if i can...." cant live and cant bretahe with no air....got me out here in the water so deep, tell me how you gonna be without me...." .....so yea.....thought id let you guys know....i wont be posting stuff for a while....may get in trouble soon and be grounded from the computer....

" It's been in the past for awhile
I get a flash and I smile
Am I crazy?
Still miss you baby

It was real, It was right
But I burned to hot to survive
All that's left is
all these ashes

Where does the love go'
I don't know
When it's all said and done
How could I be losing you forever?
After all the time we spent together?
I had to know why, I
had to lose you
Now you'll just become
Like everything I'll never find, again
At the Bottom of the ocean

Dododo dodododo
dododo dododo
dododo dododo

In a dream you appear
for awhile you were here
So I keep sleeping
just to keep you with me

I draw a map,connect the dots
with all the memories that i got
what I'm missing
I'll keep reliving

Where does the love go'
I don't know
When it's all said and done
How could I be losing you forever?
After all the time we spent together?
I had to know why, I
had to lose you
Now you'll just become
Like everything I'll never find, again
At the Bottom of the ocean


This is it
let go
Breathe

You don't have to love me for me
oh baby ever understand
Just know I love the time that we both had
and I don't ever wanna see you sad
be happy
I don't wanna hold you
if you don't wanna tell me you love me babe
just know I'm gonna have to walk away
I'll be big enough for both of us to say
be happy

Dododo dodododo
be happy (x2) "

This dang song by miley cryus has been driving me crazy...its in my mind 24/7 and now i keep listening to it none stop...dang heidi for makign me listen to her and this damn song....

i jsut cant believe everything thats going on...i seriously think i havent ever been this depressed....i hate this....i honestly have no idea if i cna ever be happy again.....i know im going to fall apart soon and completely break down.....im also noticing that im not eating that much do to this :/......i also keep listening to taylor swift alot...she completes understnads me.....

<3 Nicole

uhmm...i dont really know what to say right now...im dumbfounded....im awestruck...im speechless...im out of it....i feel like im in a dream...that my whoel world has jsut been flipped upside down...i dont really have an emtions right now and i dont really know what to think...dont expect me to be ok...because i dont know what ill be when monday comes around...

As you can see i ahve a new icon thanks to Alex, Mommy or on here known as ~TykiMickLover
So this journal is to her.Thanks a bunch mommy! Love ya <3 Thats all x)

<3 Nicole